I've gone a week without any entertainment from the computer.
except iTunes,
and I re-learnt something I knew all along:
too much access to things will ruin you.
you think that your opinion is all that matters.
true,
but where did your opinion come from?
From magazines that show tall, skinny celebs
who have no talent at all but are famous BECAUSE?
from shows that tells the story of people with EVERYTHING?
like hey, people who have everything have conflicts too you know,
but they still have everything.
who cares about conflicts when you have everything?
from reading a local paper then realising that they feature photographs of foreignors and none from singapore?
I guess it's good that I open myself up to stuff,
but what you know can kill me.
what I know can kill me,
if I don't kill what I know first.
FML of the Day::
Today, I let my friend borrow my cell phone. He logged onto my facebook application and posted a status saying, "I think I might be gay." When I found out, it was full of a bunch of comments including one from my former high school teacher saying, "I'm not surprised." FML
MLIA of the Day::
Today, my brother tried to grab my wrist and bite it. He bit his own wrist instead. MLIA.
YOU, ARE A FREAK.
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after I watched Jenny Humphrey succeed I'm freaking pissed off.
I kept thinking she was gonna fail and her dad was gonna be right but guess what? she actually got what she wanted.
and where did she start?
tailoring for Eleanor Waldorf.
she didn't get paid
and they were taking advantage of her and she stood up and walked away and she's a freaking huge success.
and my parents don't even let me do the things I love and they say with talent like mine I deserve to get paid and I agree but you gotta start somewhere and although they have a point well I'm sorry but look at how successful all my friends are getting because they don't mind being volunteers and they work their way up from there and nicholas gets freaking paid for everything he does and even though Marsha's not getting paid everybody loves her and I'm still a freaking nobody and the worst shit is a lot of people who get more recognition than me don't even want to be in the arts industry when the grow up theatre or art is just a sideline to them and it's everything to me because without art I'm nothing but without art they have something else like whatever shit they do and I'm just a stupid little nothing that will end up no where and I'll probably die from suicide than natural causes due to undiagnosed depression or some shit like that.
stop not believing in me and start trusting what I can do there's so much shit out there that don't deserve the credit and I'm freaking sure I deserve some so someone better look at me and see what I can do and STOP doubting me like the teachers, the people, the friends and my freaking family SOTA is a big fat conspiracy because we are not even commercially viable and we don't even have a manager to assign us anything I could kill myself just thinking about this shit but the thing is thinking isn't gonna get me anywhere it's doing and I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING I'm sorry I made the wrong decision to join Narnia and all that shit that I stupidly paid for but you never know unless you tried and I know now I'm not gonna pay for ANYTHING anymore and I swear I'll pay you back one day but that's not gonna happen because you don't trust me to do anything so I'll spend the rest of my life as a big fat ugly nothing and owing you a thousand bucks for a mistake which you WILLINGLY paid for
and disclaimer I don't hate my parents or Nicholas or Marsha or whoever I'm bitching about it's just a way of ranting my feelings and it's pissing the shit outta me becaue I deserve more.
I DESERVE MORE ASSHOLES.
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I kept thinking she was gonna fail and her dad was gonna be right but guess what? she actually got what she wanted.
and where did she start?
tailoring for Eleanor Waldorf.
she didn't get paid
and they were taking advantage of her and she stood up and walked away and she's a freaking huge success.
and my parents don't even let me do the things I love and they say with talent like mine I deserve to get paid and I agree but you gotta start somewhere and although they have a point well I'm sorry but look at how successful all my friends are getting because they don't mind being volunteers and they work their way up from there and nicholas gets freaking paid for everything he does and even though Marsha's not getting paid everybody loves her and I'm still a freaking nobody and the worst shit is a lot of people who get more recognition than me don't even want to be in the arts industry when the grow up theatre or art is just a sideline to them and it's everything to me because without art I'm nothing but without art they have something else like whatever shit they do and I'm just a stupid little nothing that will end up no where and I'll probably die from suicide than natural causes due to undiagnosed depression or some shit like that.
stop not believing in me and start trusting what I can do there's so much shit out there that don't deserve the credit and I'm freaking sure I deserve some so someone better look at me and see what I can do and STOP doubting me like the teachers, the people, the friends and my freaking family SOTA is a big fat conspiracy because we are not even commercially viable and we don't even have a manager to assign us anything I could kill myself just thinking about this shit but the thing is thinking isn't gonna get me anywhere it's doing and I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING I'm sorry I made the wrong decision to join Narnia and all that shit that I stupidly paid for but you never know unless you tried and I know now I'm not gonna pay for ANYTHING anymore and I swear I'll pay you back one day but that's not gonna happen because you don't trust me to do anything so I'll spend the rest of my life as a big fat ugly nothing and owing you a thousand bucks for a mistake which you WILLINGLY paid for
and disclaimer I don't hate my parents or Nicholas or Marsha or whoever I'm bitching about it's just a way of ranting my feelings and it's pissing the shit outta me becaue I deserve more.
I DESERVE MORE ASSHOLES.
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ESSAYESSAYESSAYESSAYESSAY
kind of drowning in text here.
and I just looked through half an album collection of miniature A Doll's House food.
and I feel like eating ice cream for dinner.
WEIRDDDDDDDD.
no wonder why you're getting obese you fat pig.
if I finish this section I think I'll have dinner (which won't be ice cream)
then reward myself with an episode of HIMYM or GG.
yes I'm an addict.
ugh, why do they have to hook up, dang it.
MLIA of the Day::
Last night I was watching old episodes of America's Funniest Home Videos. In a video, a man told his daughter how they accidently roasted a pregnant turkey and found the baby inside. I was utterly shocked until they told her it was a prank and I realized turkeys lay eggs. I'm 20. I should have known that. MLIA
FML of the Day::
Today, I was about to eat an apple. Feeling spontanious, I decided to twist the stem off while reciting the alphabet to see the letter of the person I would marry, just like we used to when we were kids. As soon as my fingertips got ahold of the stem, it fell off before I even made it to A. FML
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I think the TIMES NEW ROMAN font is actually kinda nice.
Oh shucks I'm growing up D:
I'm gonna turn into a boring old person who likes Times New Roman D:
NO!!!!!!!!!!
Ah whatever.
I hope Lady Gaga likes Times New Roman.
loves
MLIA of the Day::
Today my friend told me he was a vampire; I threw my Garlic Bread at him. MLIA
FML of the DAY::
Today, while lying with my 4-year old son during his nap, he rolled over, gently touched my face and whispered, "You're ugly." FML
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MIKA just gets awesomer.
everybody's gonna love today
because it's the last day of pseudofreedom.
or they might hate it
because school starts tomorrow.
sheesh, teachers, sheesh.
OMG something awkward just happened.
My sister was listening to a cover of "The Climb"
and it really sucked
so I commented "is it that lousy fat girl singing?"
and she said "no, it's my friend"
whoops.
MLIA of the Day::
Today in geography we started our new unit on China. We watched Mulan. MLIA
FML of the Day::
Today, I accidentally had my first threesome. A pair of mating bugs flew into my mouth while I was riding my bike home from class. FML
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"you would not believe your eyes"
if I wanna make it for Wayne's non-existent party tomorrow
I gotta finish my Jane Eyre and ADH essays.
so why,
am I,
talkingtoericaandleefangviamessengercheckingmyfacebookandusi
ngtumblrbutnotdoingthoseessaysatallamijustdiggingmyowngrave?!
neat table.
neat neat table.
hey you know what, once I finish Jane Eyre I'm rewarding myself.
MLIA of the Day::
Today, I walked downstairs to find my brother drinking a very dark green disgusting looking substance. Turns out it was water with a bunch of green food coloring in it because he wanted to feel like he was "drinking magic potion". He's 17. MLIA.
FML of the Day::
Today, I woke up to a loud grinding noise. I followed the noise to the kitchen, where I found my boyfriend shoving my iPhone down the garbage disposal. When I asked him why he did it, he said "It wouldn't stop staring at me." FML
to work, to work, to work.
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"I'll put my
hands over your eyes
and you'll peep through"
Welcome to the real world she said to me.
man something's wrong with me
I need help.
and I'm not kidding.
it's either stress or depression
I can't tell, but I can feel it
something's coming out
something is wrong with me.
what's my problem?!
MLIA of the Day::
Today, I put my phone in a zip lock feezer baggy,and then proceeded to text in the shower. MLIA.
FML of the Day::
Today, I took my girlfriend of five and a half years to family dinner at a restaurant. After we all had finished dessert, I got down on one knee, pulled out my great grandmother's ring and proposed. The entire restaurant was dead silent. She looked around and then slowly walked out. FML
ouch.
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you guys make me happy (:
you call this a holiday?
come on, teachers, you KNOW we deserve so much better.
"...employ the Fairy Tale?"
WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?!?!?!?! UGH!!!!
hate you all. HATE. YOU. ALL.
MLIA of the Day::
Today, I decided to change my Facebook relationship status as "widowed" just to see how people would react. My husband commented on it seconds later saying,"I'm dead?? how were you planning on breaking the news to me?" I knew I married the right man. MLIA
haha Crystle xD
FML of the Day::
Today, I bullied a kid at school, just so someone would talk to me. FML
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me miss pushing daisies ):
KAYA YOU PROMISED ME SEASON 2!!!
but I guess the promise doesn't exist anymore since Christians don't keep oaths
.___________.
take that, egg paste.
please~
awwh man I don't know how to answer a single question on the math worksheet. I'm in big fat trouble D:
MLIA of the day::
A few months ago, I started volunteering at a gym strickly for the elderly. About my fourth visit there as I was helping a man fill out his papers, he sits back and says "Is there a fan on in here?" I said no. He said, "Hmm...maybe it's just you...Blowing me away!" He was 87. I was 15. Still a ladies man. MLIA.
FML of the day::
Today, I came home to hear my girlfriend break up with me, over the answering machine, with my entire family in the room. FML
sounds like ted moseby
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I don't remember the last time I heard this song.
First time was 4 or 5 years ago (OMG I'm getting OLDDDDD)
and few nights ago I was about to sleep and the video flashed in my head.
and that's when I thought it was
AWH-SOHHMMM!!!!!
(oh good tips:
1. Watch the video (:
2. Listen to the song
3. Listen to the background music such that the vocals sound like the background music instead
4. Watch the video again ;D
you'll love it as much as I do (:
MLIA of the Day::
Today, in my German class, we learned the word "Pisswall." I am never calling it a urinal again. MLIA.
FML of the Day::
Today, while at work, a man came in wearing a very elaborate cowboy ensemble and went to talk to one of my coworkers. Once he left, I asked her how she knew a gay cowboy. She then explained that he's actually a farmer and her husband of ten years. FML
FML is getting boriiiiiiinnnng
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First time was 4 or 5 years ago (OMG I'm getting OLDDDDD)
and few nights ago I was about to sleep and the video flashed in my head.
and that's when I thought it was
AWH-SOHHMMM!!!!!
(oh good tips:
1. Watch the video (:
2. Listen to the song
3. Listen to the background music such that the vocals sound like the background music instead
4. Watch the video again ;D
you'll love it as much as I do (:
MLIA of the Day::
Today, in my German class, we learned the word "Pisswall." I am never calling it a urinal again. MLIA.
FML of the Day::
Today, while at work, a man came in wearing a very elaborate cowboy ensemble and went to talk to one of my coworkers. Once he left, I asked her how she knew a gay cowboy. She then explained that he's actually a farmer and her husband of ten years. FML
FML is getting boriiiiiiinnnng
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LEAVE
JACK NEO
ALONE.
Yes,Singapore, leave that Jack
He's done something wrong.
He knows it.
Why should you care, does it affect the quality of his movies?
Don't think so.
I'm not saying he's movies are good or bad, to be truthful I'm not a fan at all.
But think of it this way:
Ruin him and his career,
and ruin Singapore's entertainment industry.
He's the only director to achieve constant success since the turn of the millenium.
Singapore, do you want to lose all that?
I don't think so.
Don't ruin our industry
and ruin our future in the entertainment world
or the hundreds of people who work their butts off
trying to make it in showbiz.
Jack Neo might have screwed up his personal life,
but to us he is a professional.
We know him as Jack Neo the director/ actor/ producer and nothing more.
Don't think you can have a say in everything in his life just because you've heard his name.
&& for the record, this doesn't apply to Tiger Woods.
Tiger Woods isn't screwing Singapore's industry as much as Jack Neo can.
Just leave him alone.
MLIA of the Day::
Today, I realized the irony of glow-in-the-dark sunglasses.
FML of the Day::
Today, I was going to break up with my boyfriend for taking me for granted and being such a jerk. He didn't even show up for our date. FML
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You see, this is what I'm talking about.
THESE PEOPLE DESERVE MORE PUBLICITY
than some guy whose voice hasn't broken
and thinks he's in love even though he's freaking twelve.
thanks to Erica for introducing this awesome rendition to me ;D
go and complete high school, mr. bieber.
my sister's gone to VIETNAHHHHHM ;D
silence for a weeeeeeeeeeek
for her, that is. I still have my devil of a brother.
she's gonna MISSSSSS MEEEEEE ;D
"like, she's being so fake"
HAVE YOU BEEN LOOKING IN THE MIRROR LATELY?!
MLIA of the Day::
Today, my boyfriend broke up with me. I was really upset about it until one of my friends goes up to me and without saying anything, gives me a hug, and slaps a Hello Kitty band-aid on the left side of my chest. I have found the remedy to a broken heart. MLIA.
FML of the Day::
Today, my three year old nephew was pointing at the TV screen and saying "Uncle, Uncle!" He thought it was me on the screen. It was Rosie O'Donnell. FML
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Now playing: Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
via FoxyTunes
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THESE PEOPLE DESERVE MORE PUBLICITY
and thinks he's in love even though he's freaking twelve.
thanks to Erica for introducing this awesome rendition to me ;D
go and complete high school, mr. bieber.
my sister's gone to VIETNAHHHHHM ;D
silence for a weeeeeeeeeeek
for her, that is. I still have my devil of a brother.
she's gonna MISSSSSS MEEEEEE ;D
"like, she's being so fake"
HAVE YOU BEEN LOOKING IN THE MIRROR LATELY?!
MLIA of the Day::
Today, my boyfriend broke up with me. I was really upset about it until one of my friends goes up to me and without saying anything, gives me a hug, and slaps a Hello Kitty band-aid on the left side of my chest. I have found the remedy to a broken heart. MLIA.
FML of the Day::
Today, my three year old nephew was pointing at the TV screen and saying "Uncle, Uncle!" He thought it was me on the screen. It was Rosie O'Donnell. FML
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Now playing: Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
via FoxyTunes
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It's not exactly a toobaditdidn'tworkoutthing but more of a
whatcouldhavebeenifwehadtakenthispathinstead song
and I don't know why but no matter how different the genre
how annoying the voices
how different the tunes
something about the whole ifonlywehad idea just gets to me.
Love Drunk by Boys Like Girls
Broken Strings by James Morrison ft Nelly Furtado Set the Fire to the Third Bar by Snow Patrol
Breakeven by The Script
Breathe by Anna Nalick Bittersweet by John Mayer ft Kanye West The Man Who Can't Be Moved by The Script She's Got A Boyfriend Now by Boys Like Girls Breathe by Colbie Caillat ft Taylor Swift Heartless by Kanye West Wasted by Cartel I'm Not Missing You by Stacie Orrico Old School by Hedley Fairytale by Sara Bareilles Paparazzi by Lady Gaga Samson by Regina Spektor Ordinary Day by Vanessa Carlton Never Too Late by Hedley Midnight Bottle by Colbie Caillat Dreaming With A Broken Heart by John Mayer Broken by Seether ft Amy Lee How You Love Me Now by Hey Monday Your Ex-Lover Is Dead by Stars 9 Crimes by Damien Rice Love Song by Sara Bareilles
and so much more...
I'm a sucker for what-could-have-been songs.
get me a therapist.
oh, and really guys, should I switch to tumblr?
help me out here.
MLIA of the Day::
Today I apologized to my mom for something I did earlier in the week. She told me, "actions speak louder than words." I then asked her, "Then why is the pen mightier than the sword?" Neither of us have an answer. MLIA.
FML of the Day::
Today, I found out that my 50-year-old Father is the 'Sugar Daddy' to a 20-year-old. He wasted my college funds on her, which I have been dutifully saving for ever since I was 10. FML
speaking of this, take THAT Jack Neo.
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I have found....
an INDIAN EMOTICON!!!!
;D
Here it is:::::
•:)
I made it on my own *gleaming with pride*
even the Chinese and Malays don't get their own emoticons.
hahahahahahahaha
anyways I feel happy because I have friends ;D
and and and I think she's jealous of me.
no, 2 of 'em.
actually, 3.
they are jealous of me.
nah they're not I'm just deluding myself because they don't like me.
but it's okay because I have friends.
well, not close friends, but still friends.
who needs friends when you have porn.
kidding ;D
getting better now
FML of the Day::
Today, my wife of four years confessed to me that she only married me for the money. FML
MLIA of the Day::
Today, I found out my female AP Physics teacher used to fight in a Romanian street gang. MLIA.
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an INDIAN EMOTICON!!!!
;D
Here it is:::::
•:)
I made it on my own *gleaming with pride*
even the Chinese and Malays don't get their own emoticons.
hahahahahahahaha
anyways I feel happy because I have friends ;D
and and and I think she's jealous of me.
no, 2 of 'em.
actually, 3.
they are jealous of me.
nah they're not I'm just deluding myself because they don't like me.
but it's okay because I have friends.
well, not close friends, but still friends.
who needs friends when you have porn.
kidding ;D
FML of the Day::
Today, my wife of four years confessed to me that she only married me for the money. FML
MLIA of the Day::
Today, I found out my female AP Physics teacher used to fight in a Romanian street gang. MLIA.
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stop it stop it stop it.
I'm getting really annoyed at you,
and I don't know why, maybe it's just me.
or maybe it's YOU.
so be a proper friend
and stop emphasising my stupidity
or how much of an idiot I am
and bringing me down
or dissing me because you think I'm NEVER right
or even when I'm right you act like I'm so stupid you couldn't care any less
don't you "so? I don't care" me because you definitely do
and I don't care where you come from,
or how smart or successful you are.
I see you as an equal,
and it's time YOU saw me as one.
SERIOUSLY?!
IF YOU RECALL,
I was the one who started talking to you
because you were alone
and looking kind of lost.
I have friends. I DIDN'T HAVE to do that.
But I did, so don't you act all high and prissy at me
because nothing sucks balls more than
you pretending you're above me.
I'm a LEO, hear me rawr.
the only reason why I'm NOT making this public,
is because I'm stuck with you until 2012.
STUCK.
like did you say that?
because you certainly don't practice what you preach.
friends help their stupid friends.
they don't insult all day "because they can"
start being a friend and stop being a faggot
because if you keep this crap up
I can and I will ruin you.
xoxo,
me.
MLIA of the Day::
The other day in my US honors history class, we were watching a movie over the Great Depression and our teacher paused it and asked us "So if youre running low on food, who ya gonna call?" our whole class yelled without missing a beat "Ghostbusters!!" MLIA
FML of the Day::
Today, I got excited because a snowman I had built lasted a whole week, which is uncommon in my mild climate area. I thought myself lucky, and that my life was turning around. Then I realized how lame my whole train of thought was. FML
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and I do this because?
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should I get a tumblr account? :/
I'm sick and tired of you.
no, it's not that I hate you, I just don't see the point of your existence.
somepeoplewanttobeeverybodysbestfriend.
thatsreally
MLIA of the Day::
Today, I learnt that if you accidentally sit on a hamster, instead of dying, it bites your testicles. FML
(YDI.)
FML of the Day::
The other day, I found out that when I was a kid, I locked my Grandparents out of their house for 3 hours while babysitting me. They bribed me to unlock the door, by offering me a peach. No, not chocolate; a peach. MLIA.
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