One reason why I've revived this blog is because I feel really sick of having to shape myself according to what I think others think of me.
I don't succumb to pressure, but I have a very huge ego.
And most people who know me seem to be okay with me being me, but I'm not content with who I am and believe that people agree with my perception of myself.
And this has severely affected the past few years of my life.
I hid this blog a few years ago and if you go through the archives you'll probably see why.
It's very shameful. This is a brief tour:
Beginning to 2008
It honestly is a waste of time to go back this far, but if you do I hope I bear no resemblance to that person now. The posts here are cruel, self-serving, egotistic, menacing, a desperate bid to hide my insecurities, and worst of all, evidence that I used to be a cyber bully.
2008 to 2012
I'm getting crazier at this part. Obsession with looks and body. Stress with school. Still trying to prove something that doesn't need proving. I start losing direction, ambition and control. I need to get out of myself and my surroundings.
2012 to present
I’m just trying to resist the urge to kill myself every single day
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