Friday, April 23, 2010

FATSO!!!

I wish I was
anywhere but here
anyone but me
because I have internet access.

yes, guys, this is how much the media is ruining me.
us, actually,
but mostly me.

FML of the Day::
Today, my non-college educated little brother and his fiancée are closing on their first house. I will go home to my crappy basement apartment where my bachelor's degree is hung, to my unemployable wife and my failing marriage. FML

MLIA of the Day::
Yesterday a boy at my high school passed away. He was a quiet boy and wasn't terribly popular like the funny loud guys but he was one of the sweetest guys I know. Today his ex-girl friend was crying at my table. My best friend gave her a hug and started singing "Somebody to lean on". For a moment I didn't care what everyone else thought and joined in the singing. Seconds later the whole lunch room was on their feet singing, clapping, and dancing. Even the Jocks and the stuck up kids that usually to cool. I will never forget that moment or that boy. We will miss you Randal. MLIA

♡V

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I don't like blogger
I don't like tumblr
I don't like twitter
I don't like facebook
I don't like youtube
I don't like gmail

because they're boring.
I'm sick of travelling in cyberspace
and I just want to travel in reality

and hear the sound of splashing,
not the sound of splashing.mp3

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Dad why can't you be Billy Ray,
so I can depend on your fame?
Mom why can't you be Madonna,
so my entire life is paid for?

and I didn't deserve that grade.
AT ALL.
*growls*

anyway don't rap me for being emo.
I'm not emo,
I'm totally sfcurcekwed
because I'm an underachiever.
and I haven't chosen a song
and I haven't grown
and I still can't do a guy's pushup
or a pullup for that matter.

life is too unfair.
Miley Cyrus, I hope you break a nail.

MLIA of the Day::
Today, I was assisting a ballet class for four- to six-year-olds. The teacher asked us to curl up in an "egg" to stretch out our backs. A more rambunctious girl said what kind of egg she was, which prompted a chorus of different animals. After they got silent, one of the girls blurted out "I'm a dinosaur egg!" Not only is she my new favorite, she was the only one to name an animal that actually lays eggs. MLIA

FML of the Day::
Today, after school, my mom called me into the family room to see my cousin who was on TV. I ran in, all excited to find that my cousin was on the news for killing someone. FML

Hope it was Miley Cyrus ;D

♡V

Saturday, April 17, 2010

“when I was young I really really wanted braces and glasses because all the older girls school either had one or both and they were cool. my mom said no, but I kept persisting. when I was eight I finally got glasses, but somehow they didn’t look so good anymore, and when I got braces at twelve somehow they didn’t feel good with glasses, and I didn’t feel the same about them anymore.”

When I see you so fake,
not only do I lose respect for you,
I feel scared.
not because I don't know you anymore,
but because one day I might end up like you.

CONFORMITY KILLS.
yes, it's true, because plastic MELTS.

MLIA of the Day::
Today I was talking to my older sister about my relationship problems while my niece was sitting across the room watching a movie. Once I was done with my story, I said, "So what do you think?" All my sister got out was "Well" when my niece said, "You shouldn't take that ass back unless he comes crawling with a ring and tickets to Vegas." She's 8.

FML of the Day::
Today, I had an interview for a job I have been very excited about. All during the interview my nose tickled like crazy. My eyes began to water and all I could think about was making it stop. When I got to my car I stuck my finger up there and found a large winged insect. FML

♡V

Thursday, April 08, 2010

had a really bad day. woke up late, couldn't find my adidas watch. went to school, no one was there. late for theatre. realise I haven't progressed since 2008. feeling nauseous, couldn't eat my fruits so I sold 'em off. hey, people don't wanna go near me because they have something against weirdoes. tried to do physics. this sound possessive, immature and bratty but I realise there are still people whom I thought I was close to close up to me and just leave me at the sign of more friends, without even saying bye or whatever. we didn't have to, you know. went for lunch (hey, sold my fruits remember? and I couldn't bring myself to eat the apple and orange) went to subway, lady told me she'd give me a discount so I bought the student meal and she changed her mind and I had to pay 8 bucks ten. the most I've ever paid for fast food, my wallet is literally empty, and crystle owes me ten bucks. i have never been broke before, and this just shows how bad I am with managing my finances. I'm an idiot. went back to physics and cut my thumb. deep, bloody cut. literally bloody. office didn't have a plaster but my wonderful psychic powers made them dig for one. what kind of school has no plasters? stock up on first aid, people, we pay you for a reason. realise I don't get physics. or ihss. or anything else. go home, and ate. I'm a greedy pig. I'm so greedy I can't even face up to my diet and list down what I ate because I'm too ashamed. but whatever.

this is awkward, just skip to FML of the day.

Dear God, thank you for wonderful friends who make school worth attending smiles worth giving
words worth saying time worth spending life worth living (I mean this) and dreams worth fighting for because I would've given up without them. (and yes, my family kicks ass too but this post is dedicated to my friends) this post is for friends whom I haven't seen in forever, whom I thought I lost but found again, who were the messengers of your answers to my prayers. this if for friends who know I'm a good egg despite being cracked. whom I never thought I'd be friends with but end up spending time in school STUDYING with them-- yes I'm studying, hell froze over. making me feel smarter than I really am, helping me with a cut on my thumb, who ask me for help even though they know I can't help at all, who say thanks even though I've done nothing to help, who laugh even though I'm not funny and listen to my opinions before saying anything good or bad about it, saying I'm not fat despite it being so obviously untrue, saying I don't look ugly though I can't stand to look in the mirror, looking down at me not looking down on me, and spending buck awesome train rides even though they don't know if the train will crash or not. and these moments make me not want to go home so soon but not want to stay too long instead it gets ruined and no matter how much I want to quit I still wake up and go to school because this might happen all over again, but more special each time. so thank you God, for making me focus more on what I have than what I don't have, for making me thankful instead of ungrateful, for allowing me to live one more day, for letting me see that it's better to have love and lost than never loved before, to love and be loved, and still allowing me to be surprised at the fact that people love me, whether true or not. Give me strength to face tomorrow and the future, whatever it may bring (and please make it good, I'm a very weak soul you know that) and bless my friends, bless me, make common test a breeze. Amen.

okay.
that was a mouthful.
I need to find myself a church that will not ask for my identity
but trust that I am a child of God
and help me find myself for now.

those who are rolling their eyes, I told you to skip to FML of the day,
so stop rolling your eyes and feel stupid for not listening to me.

and this post, in 12 hours, will probably be a load of crap to me
because I know I'm suffering from something
that makes me fluctuate in everything
and I can't cure it without permission from my parents
who won't be giving the go ahead anytime soon

guys help me.

FML of the Day::
Today, my husband told me he wasn't attracted to me any more because of the 20 lbs I have gained after having twins. I pointed out to him that I used to have an eating disorder when we met and he never tried to help me. He said "I never planned on spending the rest of my life with you." FML

MLIA of the Day::
My girlfriend has a 3 month old niece that fits perfectly onto my arm. I've started petting her and laughing like an evil villian. around her parents. her dad was jealous that he didn't come up with that sooner. MLIA

♡V

Sunday, April 04, 2010

I.
AM.
INSANELY.
JEALOUS.

MLIA of the Day::
Today my science teacher was going over different rocks asking us if they were foliated or not. She held one up and we said it wasnt. She then proceeded to throw that rock directly at an annoying kid in my class who screamed the most girliest scream i've ever heard. It was a sponge. New favorite teacher? Yup. MLIA.

FML of the Day::
Today, I took my dog with me to go rollerblading on a trail, and he decided to poo. Being a responsible pet owner, I stopped to pick it up. The dog then jerked me off balance and caused me to fall into his poo. We were 3 miles into the 6 mile circle. FML

almost everything deserves a YDI nowadays.

ofthepeoplewhoareeverythingI'mnot

♡V

Saturday, April 03, 2010

I'm going to hell,
my cross is probably as tall as I am D:

FML of the Day::
Today, I told my boyfriend that my period was now over three weeks late. He still doesn't believe me since it's April Fool's day. But I'm not kidding. FML

YDI

MLIA of the Day::
So my boyfriend finds it funny to catch me off guard with his kisses. But today I was complaining about something so he kissed me in mid sentence. I asked him why he would do that & his answer was simple. "I didn't know how else to shut you up." Yeah he's a keeper. MLIA

whining gets you kisses. you know what to do ;D

♡V