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Saturday, June 30, 2012

sometimes I feel like no one listens. or hears.


♡V


forget it, vic, just forget it. you're being stupid. and sensitive. forget it.


♡V


whatever you do,
however close you ever get
how long this has lasted,
NEVER EVER SHARE MUSIC.
Because the look he gives you will
hurt
like
a
bitch.
And you'll have no one to blame but yourself.


♡V

Saturday, June 23, 2012

why would people even give a damn about what I have to say
My words have no value and no meaning
My thoughts are useless
I don't know if want to be alone or with someone right now
But thanks for just walking out without telling me.
I would never have done the same to you
And for the past few years of my life, thought you would never as well
Guess I never knew you as well as thought
Or maybe you decided to change without telling me or letting me in on it
Either way, there is no new me. I am still me.
But you want to define me by something that isn't me and I can't stop you
And I think that as much as it isn't fair, it is your choice
And a choice that I will have to live with.


♡V


I can't even begin to explain how hurt and surprised I am.
What's the point of explaining, you didn't explain yourself anyway.
Disbelief.
Why the fuck do people test me when I don't test them
Why are they treating me as something trivial like a gamble
Why am I so unworthy that I can't make anyone stick around.
"He left me, everyone will just do the same"
Now I know what it really means to say it.

I don't even know if I want to be alone right now
Or if I want to disappear
Or if I need to talk to someone
Or confront him face on.
He just erased 8 years.


♡V

Friday, June 22, 2012

today actually went a lot better than I expected, although the car ride was shit.


♡V

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

I keep saying "oh what I'd give to be beautiful" but I'm lying.
Because if I actually meant it, I would give it, and be beautiful.


♡V


I'm being stubborn because it's something I definitely refuse to bend to.


♡V

Monday, June 11, 2012


What is your favorite word?
Something French
What is your least favorite word? 
Nothing/ Nevermind.
What turns you on?
Enthusiasm/ Happiness/ Quirkiness
What turns you off?
Disrespectful/ dismissive/ stinky people/ "sia"
What sound or noise do you love?
Laughter/ Low voices/ Harmonies
What sound or noise do you hate?
Scoffs/ Sniggers/ High-pitched voices
What is your favorite curse word?
Balls.
What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
Dancer.
What profession would you not like to do?
Motherhood
If heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the pearly gates?
Mischief Managed


♡V

Friday, June 08, 2012






♡V



You are a Culture Vulture
Sophisticated and inquisitive you have a real passion for art and culture. You pride yourself on being in the know when it comes to the latest music and films and you always like to have a good book on the go. You believe in immersing yourself in interesting experiences that make you look at people, places and opportunities from new angles. Being sensitive and creative you want to feel connected to the world around you and actively seek out opportunities to explore it. It’s all about broadening your horizons and living life to the full. Anything else would not fulfill your curious nature.
You're a true adventurer when it comes to all things cultural. You love to be surprised and inspired.
There's nothing quite like getting immersed in the magic of theater. A combination of set, costume and top notch acting can have your emotions on a roller coaster ride. It's all about the ambience and the experience of the performance, a totally absorbing night out and the ultimate escapism in culture.
You love the fast-pace of city life. For you a great day in a new place involves following your nose and going for a long walk maybe even getting a little bit lost along the way. That's when you make the most enchanting and unexpected discoveries.
At the end of the day, you are definitely an emotional spirit and you make really strong friendships. Good buddies and lots of laughs are the recipe for exceedingly happy days. And nights!


♡V

Thursday, June 07, 2012

I feel bad that I can't tell you this, but you know what? Maybe you can call me when you're ready.


♡V


I'm going mad.
I'm dozing off but I don't want to sleep because I don't know if I'll wake up tomorrow.
I think I will, but
I don't know if I want to wake up tomorrow.


♡V


there are days when I feel like it's okay to be me
and days when it is completely not
and today, it is completely not okay to be me

it's so difficult to love me.


♡V

Saturday, June 02, 2012

THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
is something I completely don't deserve.


♡V