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- 1. What is you middle name? don't have one
- 2. How old are you? twenny-wan
- 3. What is your birthday? 1 Aug 1994
- 4. What is your zodiac sign? Leo
- 5. What is your favorite color? don't have one
- 6. What's your lucky number? 1?
- 7. Do you have any pets? nay
- 8. Where are you from? Singapore
- 9. How tall are you? 5ft
- 10. What shoe size are you? UK2/3 LOL
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And if you were to ask me
After all that we've been through
Do I still believe in magic
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now I get why I wasn't happy with A:OC even though I loved Johnna.
Because he didn't seem to believe that I could play Violet. And I could.
People should really stop underestimating me. All the energy spent fighting to prove myself would be better used into achieving greater heights if people just helped me.
A nice journal entry from 1 April 2012:
One reason why I think college isn't worth the time and money is because I've had enough of being the person that's left out all the time.
Sure people do listen to me when I'm with them, then after we say goodbye it really is goodbye.
I don't want to be the loser in college who has no one to hang out with, I don't want to be the shortest girl who is always taken for granted simply because of my size. And perhaps race, depending on where I go.
I don't want to be stereotyped, and any attempt to break the stereotype just makes me stereotyped into the kind of people who is enforcing my identity on others.
Paying thousands of dollars to feel insignificant all over again and then spending the decade after working to pay off the loans is really not worth it.
I'd like to think that I deserve more than I currently have. Sometimes I believe that I'm being shortchanged. But I know I'm the kind of person who believes that you deserve what you get. So maybe my situation is really what I deserve.
Maybe I really am a boring, average, normal nobody who keeps insisting that there's something else inside of me that the world is too blind to see.
Who am I kidding but myself right.
Haunting.
Note to self: never forget your power.
Because he didn't seem to believe that I could play Violet. And I could.
People should really stop underestimating me. All the energy spent fighting to prove myself would be better used into achieving greater heights if people just helped me.
A nice journal entry from 1 April 2012:
One reason why I think college isn't worth the time and money is because I've had enough of being the person that's left out all the time.
Sure people do listen to me when I'm with them, then after we say goodbye it really is goodbye.
I don't want to be the loser in college who has no one to hang out with, I don't want to be the shortest girl who is always taken for granted simply because of my size. And perhaps race, depending on where I go.
I don't want to be stereotyped, and any attempt to break the stereotype just makes me stereotyped into the kind of people who is enforcing my identity on others.
Paying thousands of dollars to feel insignificant all over again and then spending the decade after working to pay off the loans is really not worth it.
I'd like to think that I deserve more than I currently have. Sometimes I believe that I'm being shortchanged. But I know I'm the kind of person who believes that you deserve what you get. So maybe my situation is really what I deserve.
Maybe I really am a boring, average, normal nobody who keeps insisting that there's something else inside of me that the world is too blind to see.
Who am I kidding but myself right.
Haunting.
Note to self: never forget your power.
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First time:
Don't just use that word lightly
Second time:
Do you even know what love means
Third time:
You just love my cock
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That our souls are meant to be together
But not us.
No.
Not us.
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because you're a king and I'm your lionheart
and they won't wait and they won't wait and they won't wait
we're here to stay
howling ghosts they reappear
you're everywhere I go
let me be free and hurt no more
and they won't wait and they won't wait and they won't wait
we're here to stay
howling ghosts they reappear
you're everywhere I go
let me be free and hurt no more
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I loved you so much
why did you have to
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I'm looking at my pictures from 2012
And I'm glowing
You made me so happy
And I believed I was beautiful
Not anymore
And I'm glowing
You made me so happy
And I believed I was beautiful
Not anymore
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I'm currently in New York
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New York
And I miss you so fucking much.
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I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW
Because my incredible voice teacher Hilary Jones gave me conflicting comments and graded me down for following her advice
Not cool Hilary!!!!
Omg I don't care about grades anymore but that is definitely not okay to confuse a student like this
IF THERE'S ANYTHING I'VE LEARNT, IT'S TO FOLLOW MY INSTINCT
AND NOT TRY TO PLEASE ANYBODY IN POWER
ESPECIALLY IF THEY DON'T EVEN STICK TO WHAT THEY SAY
GRRR
here's a cute little boy to brighten my day
Because my incredible voice teacher Hilary Jones gave me conflicting comments and graded me down for following her advice
Not cool Hilary!!!!
Omg I don't care about grades anymore but that is definitely not okay to confuse a student like this
IF THERE'S ANYTHING I'VE LEARNT, IT'S TO FOLLOW MY INSTINCT
AND NOT TRY TO PLEASE ANYBODY IN POWER
ESPECIALLY IF THEY DON'T EVEN STICK TO WHAT THEY SAY
GRRR
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1.Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend?
I would very much like to be loved.
2.When did your last hug take place?
TODAY!!!!
3.Are you a jealous person?
Probably
4.Are you tired right now?
Yeah, but I'm definitely going for a run soon
5.Do you chew on your straws?
Whoops yes
6.Have you ever been called a tease?
Too awkward to acquire that honrary title
7.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
I'm quite sure 36 was my limit
8.Do you cry easily?
No not really... But I really should keep letting the channels go
9.What should you be doing right now?
FRENCH ON DUOLINGO THEN GOING FOR A RUN
10.Are you a heavy sleeper?
Not anymore
11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
Haha
12.Are you mad at someone right now?
Nope
13.Do you believe in love?
My parents are a great example.
And I love my work so so much I wouldn't trade it for anything else.
I don't think romantic love is for me but it's nice to know it exists
Like parsley
14.What makes you laugh no matter what?
an amazing memory
Jessica's laughter
15.Who was the last person you talked to?
YZ ma bebe
16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?
No, but definitely around the person I love
17.Will you get married?
Maybe. I don't need to.
18.When was the last time you smiled?
Now
19.Does anyone like you?
:3
20.Do you secretly like someone?
Maybe? I doubt it
I would very much like to be loved.
2.When did your last hug take place?
TODAY!!!!
3.Are you a jealous person?
Probably
4.Are you tired right now?
Yeah, but I'm definitely going for a run soon
5.Do you chew on your straws?
Whoops yes
6.Have you ever been called a tease?
Too awkward to acquire that honrary title
7.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
I'm quite sure 36 was my limit
8.Do you cry easily?
No not really... But I really should keep letting the channels go
9.What should you be doing right now?
FRENCH ON DUOLINGO THEN GOING FOR A RUN
10.Are you a heavy sleeper?
Not anymore
11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
Haha
12.Are you mad at someone right now?
Nope
13.Do you believe in love?
My parents are a great example.
And I love my work so so much I wouldn't trade it for anything else.
I don't think romantic love is for me but it's nice to know it exists
Like parsley
14.What makes you laugh no matter what?
an amazing memory
Jessica's laughter
15.Who was the last person you talked to?
YZ ma bebe
16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?
No, but definitely around the person I love
17.Will you get married?
Maybe. I don't need to.
18.When was the last time you smiled?
Now
19.Does anyone like you?
:3
20.Do you secretly like someone?
Maybe? I doubt it
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I dreamt that you still loved me and wanted me back
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Then I woke up and the world crashed into my chest
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