Friday, April 13, 2007
I really have nothing to blog about. I'm seriously dead.
With all the SC campaigns,
hurtful remarks[the idiots know who they are]
the scowls[from Becky, aye?]
and the irritating voices in my head
that just happen to come from
JY
&
Bennett
today,
I think I'm really dying.
Damn you ppl larhx...
If you guys don't want me to be SC don't need to say RIGHT?
Just don't vote for me on that day.
Not like I'll get some emotional breakdown and threaten to
JUMP DOWN THE BUILDING
or
SLIT MS FARAH'S THROAT
or
REFUSE TO BUY THE CLASS TEE
[ok, maybe that. I prefer the Caution design to the Dragon design]
right?
At the worst I'll just stay as 1F's
VICE-Chairperson.
This is not reverse psychology, peopuhl.
I mean what I say.
I won't threaten to do any of those things,
except not buying class tee.
Yea.
Or maybe I shall change school.
Yea, I should.
Why do I bother saving$4 for the report book anyway?
I'm gonna appeal.
[Mandy don't start that crapp with me]
And nowadays my computer keeps lagging.
It keeps restarting.
Pisses me off.
And she has changed.
Maybe she's been around so many mature people for so long
she can't even remember my character.
I'm 13, not 30.
Do not condemn me.
Why should I change?
It's a rebellious stage of life.
I can bet you Anglican High that you went through that stage too.
I'll probably bet you my scholarship.
I think I'm revealing to much.
I better stop.
No, won't BACKSPACE that.
Just feeling really emo now.
It's like, whatever bad things you guyz and galz say:
"Useless"---Credits to JY
"Irresponsible"----Credits to Bennett
"Extra"----Credits to JY and Nicholas
"Just like Zhe Wei"----Credits to Bennett, JY and Nicholas
"Do you even deserve to be SC?"---- Credits to Bennett and JY
"Victoria SUX."----Credits to JY
"Go and Die"---- Credits to JY, Nicholas
"Gramps"---- Credits to ALJ
"Boy"---- Credits to ALJ
"Loser"---- Credits to JY and KEN
"You abuse your own authority"---- Credits to Nicholas
"Asshole"---- Credits to JY and Nicholas
"EXtra"---- Credits to JY, Nicholas and Ken.
"Bitch"---- Credits to Nicholas, JY and Ken
"F*CKER"---- Credits to Nicholas
"Motherf*ckin' Bitch"---- Credits to Nicholas
(Notice that they're all given by boys,
and two of 'em are running for SC.
I never insulted them.
By insulting me,
what prove does it give to you people that they are QUALIFIED SCs?
that they are better than me?
I'm not saying you shouldn't vote for them.
Anglican is so Cuba anyway... everything's corrupt.
I don't give a damn.
I'm migrating and seeking refuge somewhere else.)
I remember everything you say because it just reflects me.
It reflects how you think of me.
It reflects how I behave.
It reflects my personality.
It reflects my character.
It reflects my ethics.
It reflects my attitude.
It reflects almost everything about me.
Apologies if I got your name wrong.
Sincerely, I feel very unapologetic.
Don't you feel honoured that what you think of me is
published on the web for the WORLD to see?
Are you satified?
Are you grateful enough?
Or do you want MORE?
Have I been properly
humiliated
thrown down
beaten
pushed around
laughed at
sneered at
criticised
insulted
vulgared
squashed
smacked
blowed
stamped
enough for you guys to smile?
Or do you want every bit, every grain of dignity I have to be
SQUASHED
STAMPED ON
RIPPED APART
before all of you leave me alone?
Can't the 37 FREAKS see that?
That behind the smiles are
worries
bitterness
hurt
grief
pain
cries
helplessness
of your VICE Chairmen?
The smile is a facade.
And it's thinning by the day.
Bet you guys don't feel anything.
You guys aren't FREAKS.
You guys are FOLLOWERS.
I'm not a Freak either.
Somehow I feel really insulted being called that.
I'm First.
I'm always First.
Nothing you do is gonna make me change.
Think about it.
Put yourselves in my shoes
my body
my head
and see how you'd feel.
Do you feel pleasure?
Do you feel happiness?
Do you feel satisfaction?
You better feel that way.
I have lowered myself to such a state
that I've never been lower.
It's a record.
Anyone who feels
pity,
empathy,
sympathy,
or whatever soppy thing better stop.
I do't want them.
I may be dying,
but I have my pride.
Waste your soppy emotions on NKF/ KDF/ whichever charity organisation.
I can't even ask anyone in class for opinions.
Even SHE won't talk to me for more than 5 mins.
Coz I'm DIFFERENT.
Coz You're SIMILAR.
You guys have no MIND of your OWN.
You FOLLOW.
I LEAD.
YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS THAT I'M BETTER.
ADMIT IT.
♡V