Monday, October 22, 2007
A few paragraphs from the book 'Now You See Her' by Jacquelyn Mitchard::
She knew that. She could never have that same quality of innocence I had, no matter how much like Alice in Wonderland she looked. Why do guys get taken in by these girls? Like, Alyssa Lyn might someday be a B movie actor or even a model for a chain department store. But she is not the real thing, as an actor or as a person. Why don't men see that? Why don't they see inside women the way we see inside them? ... ... What a complete pig. What a phony.
and
I was too good a judge of character to fall for a phony. I might have been young, but I had known a lot of people. A lot of people. And I could spot the phonies right away. I could tell people were lying even when they didn't know it themselves. I could always spot the people making excuses for why they were fat or why they didn't get a role. They were all afraid. So they didn't even try. They couldn't let their real selves show. It was uncomfortable for them to be around someone who did, like I did. I have to be rational about it now, even though it still hurts. My pride is hurt. Not the real me. The real me knows the truth.
and
They all protected Alyssa Lyn. Because she was older. Because she was part of the Starwood circle. I was the one who was the outsider, the kid who got the role all of them wanted- no matter what anyone says about it now. I was so stupid to think they would like me or understand me at Starwood. They were like sharks in a pool, and I was thrown in. I don't feel sorry for myself. But I am so sick of the way people are. They don't give you respect. They don't give you trust. That's what I hate most. You can't trust human beings any more than a pack of wild wolves. They don't have consciences. One minute they let you touch them, and the next minute they rip you apart and walk away and don't look back. You have to deal with the damage. You don't know people until they totally betray you, I always say to Em.
Finally, a book that expresses the way I feel.
I feel so light now.
Ok, here's the book summary for those who want to know a little more::
Hope has it all: brains, beauty, and acceptance at Starwood, a prestigious arts prep school. A mere sophomore, she has won the lead in Romeo and Juliet, beating out seniors for the role- seniors who have been in movies and on Broadway! And with handsome Logan as her Romeo onstage and off, her life couldn't be more perfect. So why would this talented teen throw everything away? Why would she fake her own abduction? Hope wants to explain what really happened, and gradually the truth comes out: Maybe her life wasn't that perfect after all.
I'm posting this coz I think it's SUPER meaningful.
The book caught my attention because of the phrase 'prestigious arts prep school'.
Those in my clan since primary school should know that I've been wishing to go to any art school to study, and have even planned my whole future out by myself.
*grins*
And yes, a prep school has dormitories.
*gawks*
heehee.
The character actually stays true to herself(YOU GO GAL!) but ends up in juvenile because people are jealous of her and Logan(he took her virginity) tricked her into staging her own abduction.
And NOBODY believes her.
I haven't finished the story yet, but it's WOW.
I'm left with the last chapter.
I'm sorta leading her life now, I think.
Only it's in a different format.
Anyway, if I could have her life, I am pretty sure I could do better than her.
Hope, why did you have to be so dumb to trust boys?
Worthless creatures.
Having no friends is hard (I know) but they are poseurs anyway.
Hard to ignore, hard to shun, but deep inside THEY are IMPRESSED.
Those without a conscience, re-read those parts in blue.
[RANDOM!!!!] Speaking of poseur, Jude says that MCR is a poseur band. LOL. I sorta thought so at first. I like Disenchanted, though. *grins*
P.S. Dexter, you know I'm VERY pissed at you now for shouting my secret out. I'm SO gonna give you the cold shoulder. *sticks tongue out*
Song of the day::
♡V