I Was Just Thinking...
#1:: (Please read the post below this before you continue on this post)
I finished reading the whole story. The last chapter was remarkable. It was a TWIST. Turns out that Hope was never with Logan. She was sort of having hallucinations or something. Fantasizing, maybe. Ok, this is from the book:: (Starting with Hope)
[Before this dialogue, the psychologist tells Hope that she wrote to herself, but signed the note with another person's name, instead of the person ACTUALLY writing to her.]
"That I wrote? She wrote notes to me all the time."
"Hope, Emily hasn't communicated by writing or speaking for more than two years. She understands, but she doesn't communicate. You wrote both sides of the correspondence, if you will, which is not a totally atypical thing for a girl with what would be called a borderline personality- if you're older; you're too young for me to make that kind of diagnosis."
"What do you mean, borderline?"
"Well, in simple terms, it means being on the borderline between sane and not so sane. You were on the other side of the border for a while. And now we think you can move from that dangerous side to the side that's good for you.We want to help you do that. Do you know why you got so attached to Emily, and why you always call her 'Em'? She never called herself that, according to her parents."
There. Sad, huh. She was actually having a major crush on Logan till the point of fantasizing about the fact he took her virginity. (Good thing they didn't describe anything. Phew.) And things they did together. On her side of the story, she claims that she got the lead in Romeo and Juliet, and Logan suggested the abduction. This is what Logan wrote to her::
Dear Hope,
I hope you are feeling better. I know you went through a lot. And I know part of it was my fault. Hope, when I met you, I noticed the same things that everyone notices about you. You were so talented for being as young as you were. And I thought you were very attractive. But you were so much younger than I was that I knew it would be wrong to encourage your having a crush on me.
So, after tryouts, when you were so sad that you didn't get Juliet, but you were the understudy, I took you out for a cheeseburger. And then, it was like you didn't get that I was just trying to be your pal. You acted like we were together. You would run up and hug me and jump up and wrap your legs around my waist. You would take my sunglasses and put them on. I tried to treat you like a kid sister, but you were calling my phone thirty or forty times a day. You were following me around campus all the time. Every time I had a date with someone, you would write me these hysterical letters about some plan or some idea.
Hope, there was never any plan. There was never any idea. When they found you, I didn't know what they were talking about. I think you just so badly wanted the kind of attention you used to get back home and you didn't get at Starwood that you flipped out a little. And I don't blame you for trying to put the blame on me. If you really had yourself convinced that we were a couple, and you thought that I was going away on you, I could see how you would feel completely betrayed. And you are a really good kid, and a really talented kid. but you got obsessed with me. And that's what made you do what you did, I think.
I personally don't believe I was worth all the trouble and pain you put yourself through. I'm just this dumb guy. I really want you to be happy, Hope. Maybe acting is too superficial and stressful for you. Maybe not. But whatever you do, take the time to get better first.
Your friend, Logan Rose.
So this kinda makes me really nutty. Like, who is the bad one? Who is the victim? It's such a wonderful twist. Gee, I really can relate to this book LOTS.
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Now playing: JoJo - Leave Get Out
#2::
I'm addicted to Shane's blog. Hahahaha. I refer to him like he's my friend or something. Nay. He's Eunice's cousin. She told me to go to his blog. Now I'm addicted. It's just a simple blog, but he is the FIRST person who blogs in PROPER english. No singlish! And he is one BIG narcissist. I'm not even as narcissistic as him luh. His CCA is/was/? drama. Reading the post makes me feel like I'm stalking him. *shudder* And he has funny phrases. Examples:: Arghy Parghy; I'm so cool, I make ice look hot; hurhur; eat like funfair; aite; ohmysexygoodness; thank chew berry much... Hey, I'm practically ADVERTISING his blog! AHH~! No! Shoo! (Not linking him.)
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Now playing: Mika - Love Today
#3::
I've been using the computer everyday (or almost) but those on my contact list don't see me online because my computer has been attacked by the Trojan virus, if I'm not wrong. Dang. My computer's also downloading PORN automatically. Double Dang. Good thing it's not stored in my hardisk. PHEW. So I'm not online coz I'm afraid of sending the virus to anyone by mistake. (Eh, no, not Wennie's fault.) DO NOT CLICK ON ADVERTS THAT APPEAR ON THE TAGBOARD EITHER!!!! Oh ya, you guys might have to cease contact with me from now on. Except in school, maybe. My handphone dropped into the toilet bowl. It's been fixed, but the words 'Contact Service' is the only thing that appears on the screen, and I don't know what to do. So yea.
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Now playing: Fergie - London Bridge (Oh Shit)
(Funny ha ha. What a pun.)
#4::
I am SO glad 22nd October is OVER!!! (Aren't you, MARH-SHAH?) Good, no more rushing. Plan:: Chill out for a while, then start worrying about the result for the next few days. How nice. PLEASE~ PLEASE I NEED TO GET IT!!!! Think of the $Sexaye Monaye$ This is a real chance of a lifetime! Ok, maybe some of you don't even know what' happening, but I'm not gonna tell. (DEXTER, I'm still IGNORING you.)
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Now playing: Bowling For Soup - Luckiest Loser
#5::
I forgive them. Them is Famous Five. I don't know why I should forgive Famous Five, since I don't know what they did. (Someone tell me please. Really.) But I just feel that I should just forgive. I did post about them, which sparked LOTSA commotion, but I don't see the need to explain myself. Enemies won't believe it, friends won't even need it. Never mind if they don't forgive. But I'm gonna not holding grudges. I stated that I hated Famous Five. (Jason included) That's TRUE. But I really thought it out today. Gee, They aren't that bad. They have good traits, like teamwork and loyalty. And I was breaking them up, sort of. Not sure. Anyway, it was only one misunderstanding that blew up, I think. I don't even remember. *sighs* I was stubborn and bitchy, they were rude to me... My PUMAs caused it. I let them book me, though. I have so much to say but ok, I'm getting out of point here. Famous Five vs Me. Both are egoistic. Both won't give in. Both HATE each other. I'm so over that. Forgiven.
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Now playing: Corrine May - Little Superhero Girl
Hmmm, funny how the songs I'm listening to at the moment enhances the mood of that particular subject I'm blogging about. PURELY COINCIDENTAL.
Song of the day::
♡V
#1:: (Please read the post below this before you continue on this post)
I finished reading the whole story. The last chapter was remarkable. It was a TWIST. Turns out that Hope was never with Logan. She was sort of having hallucinations or something. Fantasizing, maybe. Ok, this is from the book:: (Starting with Hope)
[Before this dialogue, the psychologist tells Hope that she wrote to herself, but signed the note with another person's name, instead of the person ACTUALLY writing to her.]
"That I wrote? She wrote notes to me all the time."
"Hope, Emily hasn't communicated by writing or speaking for more than two years. She understands, but she doesn't communicate. You wrote both sides of the correspondence, if you will, which is not a totally atypical thing for a girl with what would be called a borderline personality- if you're older; you're too young for me to make that kind of diagnosis."
"What do you mean, borderline?"
"Well, in simple terms, it means being on the borderline between sane and not so sane. You were on the other side of the border for a while. And now we think you can move from that dangerous side to the side that's good for you.We want to help you do that. Do you know why you got so attached to Emily, and why you always call her 'Em'? She never called herself that, according to her parents."
There. Sad, huh. She was actually having a major crush on Logan till the point of fantasizing about the fact he took her virginity. (Good thing they didn't describe anything. Phew.) And things they did together. On her side of the story, she claims that she got the lead in Romeo and Juliet, and Logan suggested the abduction. This is what Logan wrote to her::
Dear Hope,
I hope you are feeling better. I know you went through a lot. And I know part of it was my fault. Hope, when I met you, I noticed the same things that everyone notices about you. You were so talented for being as young as you were. And I thought you were very attractive. But you were so much younger than I was that I knew it would be wrong to encourage your having a crush on me.
So, after tryouts, when you were so sad that you didn't get Juliet, but you were the understudy, I took you out for a cheeseburger. And then, it was like you didn't get that I was just trying to be your pal. You acted like we were together. You would run up and hug me and jump up and wrap your legs around my waist. You would take my sunglasses and put them on. I tried to treat you like a kid sister, but you were calling my phone thirty or forty times a day. You were following me around campus all the time. Every time I had a date with someone, you would write me these hysterical letters about some plan or some idea.
Hope, there was never any plan. There was never any idea. When they found you, I didn't know what they were talking about. I think you just so badly wanted the kind of attention you used to get back home and you didn't get at Starwood that you flipped out a little. And I don't blame you for trying to put the blame on me. If you really had yourself convinced that we were a couple, and you thought that I was going away on you, I could see how you would feel completely betrayed. And you are a really good kid, and a really talented kid. but you got obsessed with me. And that's what made you do what you did, I think.
I personally don't believe I was worth all the trouble and pain you put yourself through. I'm just this dumb guy. I really want you to be happy, Hope. Maybe acting is too superficial and stressful for you. Maybe not. But whatever you do, take the time to get better first.
Your friend, Logan Rose.
So this kinda makes me really nutty. Like, who is the bad one? Who is the victim? It's such a wonderful twist. Gee, I really can relate to this book LOTS.
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Now playing: JoJo - Leave Get Out
#2::
I'm addicted to Shane's blog. Hahahaha. I refer to him like he's my friend or something. Nay. He's Eunice's cousin. She told me to go to his blog. Now I'm addicted. It's just a simple blog, but he is the FIRST person who blogs in PROPER english. No singlish! And he is one BIG narcissist. I'm not even as narcissistic as him luh. His CCA is/was/? drama. Reading the post makes me feel like I'm stalking him. *shudder* And he has funny phrases. Examples:: Arghy Parghy; I'm so cool, I make ice look hot; hurhur; eat like funfair; aite; ohmysexygoodness; thank chew berry much... Hey, I'm practically ADVERTISING his blog! AHH~! No! Shoo! (Not linking him.)
----------------
Now playing: Mika - Love Today
#3::
I've been using the computer everyday (or almost) but those on my contact list don't see me online because my computer has been attacked by the Trojan virus, if I'm not wrong. Dang. My computer's also downloading PORN automatically. Double Dang. Good thing it's not stored in my hardisk. PHEW. So I'm not online coz I'm afraid of sending the virus to anyone by mistake. (Eh, no, not Wennie's fault.) DO NOT CLICK ON ADVERTS THAT APPEAR ON THE TAGBOARD EITHER!!!! Oh ya, you guys might have to cease contact with me from now on. Except in school, maybe. My handphone dropped into the toilet bowl. It's been fixed, but the words 'Contact Service' is the only thing that appears on the screen, and I don't know what to do. So yea.
---------------
Now playing: Fergie - London Bridge (Oh Shit)
(Funny ha ha. What a pun.)
#4::
I am SO glad 22nd October is OVER!!! (Aren't you, MARH-SHAH?) Good, no more rushing. Plan:: Chill out for a while, then start worrying about the result for the next few days. How nice. PLEASE~ PLEASE I NEED TO GET IT!!!! Think of the $Sexaye Monaye$ This is a real chance of a lifetime! Ok, maybe some of you don't even know what' happening, but I'm not gonna tell. (DEXTER, I'm still IGNORING you.)
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Now playing: Bowling For Soup - Luckiest Loser
#5::
I forgive them. Them is Famous Five. I don't know why I should forgive Famous Five, since I don't know what they did. (Someone tell me please. Really.) But I just feel that I should just forgive. I did post about them, which sparked LOTSA commotion, but I don't see the need to explain myself. Enemies won't believe it, friends won't even need it. Never mind if they don't forgive. But I'm gonna not holding grudges. I stated that I hated Famous Five. (Jason included) That's TRUE. But I really thought it out today. Gee, They aren't that bad. They have good traits, like teamwork and loyalty. And I was breaking them up, sort of. Not sure. Anyway, it was only one misunderstanding that blew up, I think. I don't even remember. *sighs* I was stubborn and bitchy, they were rude to me... My PUMAs caused it. I let them book me, though. I have so much to say but ok, I'm getting out of point here. Famous Five vs Me. Both are egoistic. Both won't give in. Both HATE each other. I'm so over that. Forgiven.
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Now playing: Corrine May - Little Superhero Girl
Hmmm, funny how the songs I'm listening to at the moment enhances the mood of that particular subject I'm blogging about. PURELY COINCIDENTAL.
Song of the day::
♡V