this is awkward, just skip to FML of the day.
Dear God, thank you for wonderful friends who make school worth attending smiles worth giving
words worth saying time worth spending life worth living (I mean this) and dreams worth fighting for because I would've given up without them. (and yes, my family kicks ass too but this post is dedicated to my friends) this post is for friends whom I haven't seen in forever, whom I thought I lost but found again, who were the messengers of your answers to my prayers. this if for friends who know I'm a good egg despite being cracked. whom I never thought I'd be friends with but end up spending time in school STUDYING with them-- yes I'm studying, hell froze over. making me feel smarter than I really am, helping me with a cut on my thumb, who ask me for help even though they know I can't help at all, who say thanks even though I've done nothing to help, who laugh even though I'm not funny and listen to my opinions before saying anything good or bad about it, saying I'm not fat despite it being so obviously untrue, saying I don't look ugly though I can't stand to look in the mirror, looking down at me not looking down on me, and spending buck awesome train rides even though they don't know if the train will crash or not. and these moments make me not want to go home so soon but not want to stay too long instead it gets ruined and no matter how much I want to quit I still wake up and go to school because this might happen all over again, but more special each time. so thank you God, for making me focus more on what I have than what I don't have, for making me thankful instead of ungrateful, for allowing me to live one more day, for letting me see that it's better to have love and lost than never loved before, to love and be loved, and still allowing me to be surprised at the fact that people love me, whether true or not. Give me strength to face tomorrow and the future, whatever it may bring (and please make it good, I'm a very weak soul you know that) and bless my friends, bless me, make common test a breeze. Amen.
okay.
that was a mouthful.
I need to find myself a church that will not ask for my identity
but trust that I am a child of God
and help me find myself for now.
those who are rolling their eyes, I told you to skip to FML of the day,
so stop rolling your eyes and feel stupid for not listening to me.
and this post, in 12 hours, will probably be a load of crap to me
because I know I'm suffering from something
that makes me fluctuate in everything
and I can't cure it without permission from my parents
who won't be giving the go ahead anytime soon
guys help me.
FML of the Day::
Today, my husband told me he wasn't attracted to me any more because of the 20 lbs I have gained after having twins. I pointed out to him that I used to have an eating disorder when we met and he never tried to help me. He said "I never planned on spending the rest of my life with you." FML
MLIA of the Day::
My girlfriend has a 3 month old niece that fits perfectly onto my arm. I've started petting her and laughing like an evil villian. around her parents. her dad was jealous that he didn't come up with that sooner. MLIA
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