I think the reason why I quite hate myself is because I put others before myself.
And I know this sounds very self-centered but hey I'm not forcing you to read this.

My theory is that:
I put others before myself, meaning that I care more for the needs of others than myself, and others are so used to me doing this that they forget that I have to care for myself as well, such that when I start saying or doing or thinking anything relating to me and not them, they think that I'm self-centered, because they aren't used to having me think/ do/ say stuff for myself in front of them.
And because they think I'm self-centered, I start thinking I'm self-centered, so I stop thinking for myself and start putting others before me, even more so than before, which I think is bad, because I start neglecting myself and end up more beaten up than before and end up hating myself even more.
I'm not saying that I should stop caring for others, and I'm not trying to sound like some martyr, because I'm not. I'm a so-called "normal" human being who happens to care for others as well as herself, but people have gotten so used to me caring for them that they've stopped being aware that I actually care for them, and when I start caring for myself, it's a new concept to them and so they just don't really like it.

I'm not gonna name any examples, because it's not anyone's fault but mine that I'm like that.
But whatever it is, I think if I had a chance to just be away from everyone and do my own things at my own time, just for a while, I think I'll be much happier.
Away from social obligations of any sort. Like a hermit, but not exactly.
I think it'll be quite fun to do that.