I feel like I just created my own wormhole and jumped straight into it
Once I do this there's no going back
and I'm so dead certain that if I fail, or when I fail, I probably won't have what it takes in me to pick myself up and try again.
I've dealt with enough rejections over the course of my life to just stop everything
and I know that without this I have nothing to live for
but at the same time it feels that nothing is what I deserve
I am going insane.