I can't even begin to explain how hurt and surprised I am.
What's the point of explaining, you didn't explain yourself anyway.
Disbelief.
Why the fuck do people test me when I don't test them
Why are they treating me as something trivial like a gamble
Why am I so unworthy that I can't make anyone stick around.
"He left me, everyone will just do the same"
Now I know what it really means to say it.

I don't even know if I want to be alone right now
Or if I want to disappear
Or if I need to talk to someone
Or confront him face on.
He just erased 8 years.