you know what I can't fucking stand? He fought so hard to keep someone whom he thought was perfect but treated him like complete shit, and now that I'm here he's doing unto me what she did unto him. I don't know who to hate more -- her, him, or me.

and I'm so confused.
Do I deserve more than what I get?
And even if I do, what are the chances that I'll find it?
And even if I do, what are the chances that I want that?