Rough morning...
Too many thoughts and images in my head
A reminder of the many times the monster left to test if I would plead for him to stay
So much manipulation
Cruelty
I didn't deserve it
I did my best every single day
I would have done anything to keep him
Silly child, how about keeping your sanity?
Your good night's sleep?
Your sense of self?
I don't think I understand what love means
But I would give up that search to find myself
And a night without the voices and flashbacks telling me
You weren't worthy in the first place