A year ago I was quite a different person
with a much bigger heart

I couldn't wait to return home to you
I missed you so much
my god I was so in love with you
just so completely in love

I kinda miss that
I miss being able to feel that way
feel for someone in that way

sometimes I wish I could feel that way again
but then I remember that if I feel that way I end up being hurt
and maybe it's better to feel the numbness I feel now
then I realise that it isn't numbness I'm feeling
it's just hurt and hurt and hurt, and sometimes I'm used to it.
And sometimes, like tonight, I remember that I'm hurt
and I wish I could feel like how I felt before
Feeling with the possibility of being hurt by those feelings
But at least for that period I wouldn't be hurt
like I am now.